Dark dark night
Everyone knows I have a thing for the dark side. Dark side of people, dark side of life. I like the dark side because the dark side usually speaks the truth and the bright side hides it. The dark side is the more comfortable side because any actions can be accounted for whereas the bright side has to stick to its own principles.
Like the 2 movies I watch today. Mysterious Skin and Crash. Back to back movies. It reminded of me of another time when I had another dark night when I watched Memento and Nurse Betty. I kinda enjoy the feeling of watching depressing movies and how the reality of life sucks your soul dry, making you detest, empathize and be scornful of your own human race all at the same time.
Mysterious Skin is a story about two boys with really fucked-up childhoods and its ramifications. Sodomy and alien abduction. How you piece those two together? You'll never believe it. It kinda remind me of my own fucked-up childhood with pedophiles come calling in and writing letters to me asking me to suck their cock. Talk about a fucked-up world.
Crash is something like the NKF shows. Fucking sad stories all linked together but done beautifully with much more purpose and impact unlike the NKF shows where this retarded guy appearing always stuggles to eat his food and talk. The show goes about showing how low people can go due to racial preferences, money, favourism, loneliness.
I was pretty fidgety watching the 2 shows with an ongoing word-texting squabble on my cellphone. The dark shows illuminating the illusion that my own fucked-up dark side is gonna surface and how the fucked-up world and my own fucked-up flaws got me into this mess. My friend beside me feeling fucked-up with a fucked-up friend who was late and restless. So all this kinda link up don't you think? Catching the last SMRT train to Boon Lay to find out that the last bus back to my school leaves at 0000 caps an outstanding night of darkness. Thinking of how much money I spent over the last few days also gave me the urge to applaud myself or maybe just put my hand together a few times on my way back on a midnight surcharge cab.
But it works well for me. I'm the dark type of person. And this is just but another night that's gone a little darker than usual.
Like the 2 movies I watch today. Mysterious Skin and Crash. Back to back movies. It reminded of me of another time when I had another dark night when I watched Memento and Nurse Betty. I kinda enjoy the feeling of watching depressing movies and how the reality of life sucks your soul dry, making you detest, empathize and be scornful of your own human race all at the same time.
Mysterious Skin is a story about two boys with really fucked-up childhoods and its ramifications. Sodomy and alien abduction. How you piece those two together? You'll never believe it. It kinda remind me of my own fucked-up childhood with pedophiles come calling in and writing letters to me asking me to suck their cock. Talk about a fucked-up world.
Crash is something like the NKF shows. Fucking sad stories all linked together but done beautifully with much more purpose and impact unlike the NKF shows where this retarded guy appearing always stuggles to eat his food and talk. The show goes about showing how low people can go due to racial preferences, money, favourism, loneliness.
I was pretty fidgety watching the 2 shows with an ongoing word-texting squabble on my cellphone. The dark shows illuminating the illusion that my own fucked-up dark side is gonna surface and how the fucked-up world and my own fucked-up flaws got me into this mess. My friend beside me feeling fucked-up with a fucked-up friend who was late and restless. So all this kinda link up don't you think? Catching the last SMRT train to Boon Lay to find out that the last bus back to my school leaves at 0000 caps an outstanding night of darkness. Thinking of how much money I spent over the last few days also gave me the urge to applaud myself or maybe just put my hand together a few times on my way back on a midnight surcharge cab.
But it works well for me. I'm the dark type of person. And this is just but another night that's gone a little darker than usual.
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