Under and overestimating
Everybody is at one point or another overestimated or underestimated in their lives. I am understimated at my camp and overestimated elsewhere. Well that's not the point. I've told many of my good friends about my theory of first impressions. Nothing new, but I believe in giving people bad first impressions. Why? Cos if you slightly rise above your given sterotype, it'll be such a pleasant surprise for other people. The same can be said for people who give very good first impressions. Disappointments are easier to come by with just flaws here and there slowly revealing. Also, if you won't get to know that person better, what does impression count anyway?
I can't help but give people good first impressions or that's what i think, which is definitely not what i want. I am overrated and overestimated. Just because I was a fucking child star, people assume that i'm always acting. Yea I like to act and fool around and say crap, but in the end it backfires as being unreal, hypocritical? People view me as some deceptious, sophisticated, scheming person. I take that as a compliment but i'm really just a very very simple person.
What does it feel like if you wake up and you're someone else?
Being the only child ( only childs are all mentally disturbed, temperamental, psychotics, sad people with no one to play with but themselves at home in nursery years ), i always have a lot of fantasies about different things. Like switching identities with someone, like 2 persons becoming 1, like my crush's family all died and she has no choice but to stay with me since i'm her closest friend, like getting lost in a foreign land with someone I like and not returning back for many many years, like how I led Singapore to win the World Cup. I could actually play these stories in images and dialogue in my mind, word by word, not leaving out any single detail to make it as real as possible. Daydreamin that's right. But to that extent. Am I the only one?
Back to the topic, the real punchline is: it's ironic that you would love praises lavished upon you, but deep down you know that that person may be over-estimating you, thinking you as somebody you not really are, and you feel lost and insecure that you really are not what that person has praised you to be. Whereas for under-estimating, ha, it's just a reason to challenge and prove all the doubters wrong.
Bad impressions and under-estimation?
They're sort of negative things in a positive way.
I can't help but give people good first impressions or that's what i think, which is definitely not what i want. I am overrated and overestimated. Just because I was a fucking child star, people assume that i'm always acting. Yea I like to act and fool around and say crap, but in the end it backfires as being unreal, hypocritical? People view me as some deceptious, sophisticated, scheming person. I take that as a compliment but i'm really just a very very simple person.
What does it feel like if you wake up and you're someone else?
Being the only child ( only childs are all mentally disturbed, temperamental, psychotics, sad people with no one to play with but themselves at home in nursery years ), i always have a lot of fantasies about different things. Like switching identities with someone, like 2 persons becoming 1, like my crush's family all died and she has no choice but to stay with me since i'm her closest friend, like getting lost in a foreign land with someone I like and not returning back for many many years, like how I led Singapore to win the World Cup. I could actually play these stories in images and dialogue in my mind, word by word, not leaving out any single detail to make it as real as possible. Daydreamin that's right. But to that extent. Am I the only one?
Back to the topic, the real punchline is: it's ironic that you would love praises lavished upon you, but deep down you know that that person may be over-estimating you, thinking you as somebody you not really are, and you feel lost and insecure that you really are not what that person has praised you to be. Whereas for under-estimating, ha, it's just a reason to challenge and prove all the doubters wrong.
Bad impressions and under-estimation?
They're sort of negative things in a positive way.
posted by jingli K at 11:43 PM
1 Comments:
Relax hor... Don't stress... Just be your paikia and let everyone underestimate you. I prefer doing that, myself. Steady.
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